An open letter to you
Hi, you.
How long has it been since we've known each other? To be honest, when you first said hi and asked if I remember you the first time we talked, I was quite shocked as I didn't expect to see anyone I know. It's nearing December now, and although we haven't spoke much, each conversation is a treasure.
Wouldn't it be nice if we could spend an evening together and just talk, so I can get to know you better and you me? How possible is it when our past conversations were short but to the point? All it took was a smile, a wave and a sentence.
It's nice to know when each time you see me, you stopped and waved, I remember vaguely when we were at there. You were just walking past the room, I noticed. You looked into the room, perhaps due to curiosity, and upon seeing me, paused, waved and greeted. Maybe it's just due to manners, but it's actually a sweet thing to do... to me, at least.
I have no idea what you think of me as, but I really would love to carry out a conversation with you. However, it's a little difficult, considering the fact that it seems that when I want to converse with you, you give me short answers. When you talk to me, on the other hand, I try to talk more. Hopefully, we will be able to reach that step one day where we can hold long conversations and not notice the time passing.
From,
Me :)
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
For people who do not know me, my ultimate bias in K-Pop is Girls' Generation's Seohyun, be it male or female.
Alright, now that I have gotten it out, I have to ask. What's wrong with liking a female singer, even if I am a female? Why is it that when I point out I like Seohyun, I get weird looks? And people will start asking me, "don't females normally like male singers/groups?" Well, I don't.
Actually, before I decided to post this, I had been thinking. My first ever favourite Mandopop singer was Angela Zhang, and my first ever favourite English singer was Britney Spears. Wait, they're still my favourite out of the rest, but I don't follow them much.
Maybe I'm just unique. But is it a crime that I prefer female singers to male singers? Alright, originally, I preferred Lin Jun Jie for Mandopop and SHINee from K-Pop. However, I switched over to the female singers after about 3-6 months of liking them. It's not that I no longer like them or their music, but I just prefer the female singers. And, they're prettier too, though that does not matter.
And FYI, I AM STRAIGHT. <--- This is for people who thinks that I'm not straight just because I prefer female singers.
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Simple and sweet smiles.
Just some thoughts..
The moment when someone sees you, and lets a smile grace their face, and you know that the smile is just for you, and for you alone.
Isn't it sweet when that happens? Seeing that smile, just reserved for you, is so heartwarming. It could be from a loved one, or even just an acquaintance. The other day, I received a smile and a wave from an... acquaintance, you could say? It's not like I expected this acquaintance to come up and say hi, but it's just sweet. We had talked a few times before, but we weren't close. It's not like I like like this acquaintance, but as the quote states, a smile can go a long way. A smile can make one happy the whole day :) For me, I can be an awkward and insecure person, so a smile to me, can mean that the person welcomes me, and although we may not talk, the person is glad to see me.
The moment when someone sees you, and lets a smile grace their face, and you know that the smile is just for you, and for you alone.
Isn't it sweet when that happens? Seeing that smile, just reserved for you, is so heartwarming. It could be from a loved one, or even just an acquaintance. The other day, I received a smile and a wave from an... acquaintance, you could say? It's not like I expected this acquaintance to come up and say hi, but it's just sweet. We had talked a few times before, but we weren't close. It's not like I like like this acquaintance, but as the quote states, a smile can go a long way. A smile can make one happy the whole day :) For me, I can be an awkward and insecure person, so a smile to me, can mean that the person welcomes me, and although we may not talk, the person is glad to see me.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
Excerpt 3
The clock chimed and she glanced at the time. Was it only 2PM? Outside, the sun was glaring and she quickly pulled down the blinds. No point in getting a headache, or worst, a migraine. As the minutes ticked by slowly, she sighed and grabbed a nutrition bar from the cupboard. Peeling open the wrapper, she took a bite, hoping that eating it will keep her awake. Realizing it was to no avail, she wondered if a little doze will be alright. After all, she was tired and unable to function.
The clock chimed and she glanced at the time. Was it only 2PM? Outside, the sun was glaring and she quickly pulled down the blinds. No point in getting a headache, or worst, a migraine. As the minutes ticked by slowly, she sighed and grabbed a nutrition bar from the cupboard. Peeling open the wrapper, she took a bite, hoping that eating it will keep her awake. Realizing it was to no avail, she wondered if a little doze will be alright. After all, she was tired and unable to function.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Excerpt 2:
Their love was always sweet. People who heard their stories would always sigh happily as if that story was really theirs, and even the guys will wonder why didn't they think of the idea first. Maybe it was the general public opinion, but to her, she felt empty. It seemed just like a cover, a play, a beautiful cliche movie. They had been chased to get married quickly, which they did, under much pressure. Perhaps it was the pressure, but then again, what if it was not?
He was like Prince Charming, always treating her like she was made out of glass and the love in his eyes was intense. She sometimes wondered if he could see the sadness in her eyes, as she thought about the other guy... the one she missed, the one she loved... still love. Shaking her head, she tried to erase the thoughts as he entered the room. He rose a quizzical eyebrow, but she could only offer a faint smile. As they lay together in bed that night, she wondered why this felt like cheating.
Their love was always sweet. People who heard their stories would always sigh happily as if that story was really theirs, and even the guys will wonder why didn't they think of the idea first. Maybe it was the general public opinion, but to her, she felt empty. It seemed just like a cover, a play, a beautiful cliche movie. They had been chased to get married quickly, which they did, under much pressure. Perhaps it was the pressure, but then again, what if it was not?
He was like Prince Charming, always treating her like she was made out of glass and the love in his eyes was intense. She sometimes wondered if he could see the sadness in her eyes, as she thought about the other guy... the one she missed, the one she loved... still love. Shaking her head, she tried to erase the thoughts as he entered the room. He rose a quizzical eyebrow, but she could only offer a faint smile. As they lay together in bed that night, she wondered why this felt like cheating.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
August 28,2013
She groaned as she placed her head in her arms, covering her face and muttered, "what have I done?!" Suddenly, negative thoughts seem to fill her mind as she remembered her errors. She started to forget the things that she had done. She blocked out everything, but still, one thought remained in her mind. She needed to quit. Immediately! Forcing herself to calm down, she realized another error and a string of curses flew out of her mouth before she could stop it.
August 29, 2013
The whole day has been a mess. It seemed that whatever she had done, it was not good enough. Sighing, she took her pass and left her little work space. All she knew was that she had to get out of there. As she walked aimlessly, she thought of the events that had happened that day and let out a howl of frustration. Others looked at her strangely and muttered amongst themselves while only one was silent as he gazed at her irritated look. Having a feeling that someone was watching her, she turned around and seeing nothing out of the ordinary, trudged on.
Just then, she noticed that she had arrived at the canal. Many always wanted to walk quickly away from it, as the water in it was dirty, giving out an unpleasant smell. However, to her, it was their canal... the canal where he had first asked her out, gave her their first hug and shared their first kiss. But as all good things eventually come to an end, so did their relationship. Her love for him had fizzled out first, but he continued to persist. His persistence had become so annoying that she felt suffocated by it and threatened to place a restraining order. The restraining order never took place, as a few days later, he was involved in an accident that led him to a coma and being on life support.
A tear leaked down from her eye and she brushed it away angrily. His family, not being well-to-do, did not have enough to keep him on life support so she had volunteered. Voices were raised and arguments took place, as his family knew that they had broken up and that it was her fault, so why would she want to help them? "Because I still love him," she had murmured quietly. There had been a still silence before the rest had agreed on her promise.
Author:
Yeong Si Yah Juliana
She groaned as she placed her head in her arms, covering her face and muttered, "what have I done?!" Suddenly, negative thoughts seem to fill her mind as she remembered her errors. She started to forget the things that she had done. She blocked out everything, but still, one thought remained in her mind. She needed to quit. Immediately! Forcing herself to calm down, she realized another error and a string of curses flew out of her mouth before she could stop it.
August 29, 2013
The whole day has been a mess. It seemed that whatever she had done, it was not good enough. Sighing, she took her pass and left her little work space. All she knew was that she had to get out of there. As she walked aimlessly, she thought of the events that had happened that day and let out a howl of frustration. Others looked at her strangely and muttered amongst themselves while only one was silent as he gazed at her irritated look. Having a feeling that someone was watching her, she turned around and seeing nothing out of the ordinary, trudged on.
Just then, she noticed that she had arrived at the canal. Many always wanted to walk quickly away from it, as the water in it was dirty, giving out an unpleasant smell. However, to her, it was their canal... the canal where he had first asked her out, gave her their first hug and shared their first kiss. But as all good things eventually come to an end, so did their relationship. Her love for him had fizzled out first, but he continued to persist. His persistence had become so annoying that she felt suffocated by it and threatened to place a restraining order. The restraining order never took place, as a few days later, he was involved in an accident that led him to a coma and being on life support.
A tear leaked down from her eye and she brushed it away angrily. His family, not being well-to-do, did not have enough to keep him on life support so she had volunteered. Voices were raised and arguments took place, as his family knew that they had broken up and that it was her fault, so why would she want to help them? "Because I still love him," she had murmured quietly. There had been a still silence before the rest had agreed on her promise.
Author:
Yeong Si Yah Juliana
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